Whoa!! Hold it!!

STOP RIGHT THERE!! God, did you really think that was funny?? You know that thing you do when you don't feel right...uncomfortable...bitter...a touch of sadness...and you can't do anything but laugh?!? And you are screaming in your head...Are you kidding me Lord?? Seriously??

If you don't know what that is, let me boldy say you've never loved and loss. No, I am not just talking about a man/woman relationship...but any type of relationship. So I am stuck in a suspended moment this morning with my past sitting before me. I am so thankful I was forewarned about certain things but some unexpected banter made me look at some friends and laugh. They laughed along with me and I can probably say they were saying "Seriously?!?!" in their heads too. They get me and they know what makes my head spin.

So why do I hold onto some things? God has placed in my life some awesome people that love me...they laugh with me...they cry with me...they put up with my pendulam moods and still want to be near me...they genuinely care about me...but confronted with the past and I seem to dive into some aching rejection that otherwise doesn't bother me.

So how do I move on though slapped in the face every once and a while?? I don't have the exact answer but I do know that it makes me appreciate the wonderful encouraging people He has put in my life today. I am glad He removed others to make way for those in my life today. Though it is painful at times, it is so worth it.

Wrapped in Grace
Jolie