KawRaw

So I don't know how to write hebrew but the pronounciation is "Kaw-Raw" which means "cry out".

So yesterday Neil started a new series on Psalms 120-135(I think it is 135)Anyways, the first part of the series was looking at how the psalms cry out to God. People were just as desperate as they are today.

I never have had a problem crying out to God. My problem is crying out to him FIRST. He is usually my last resort. You know when nothing else works. I go thru my friends and family and co-workers. When that doesn't work, I try to fix it myself. THEN I go to God. By that time I am soooooo frustrated I am crying and screaming and begging.

So I was able to practice kaw-raw Sunday afternoon. Instead of doing my usual "call Andrea so I can make sense of my emotions", I got on my knees and buried my face in the 1980's green cordurouy couch and cried out to the Maker of the heaven and earth. I won't say it changed circumstances but He did comfort me to the depths of my inner most being.

Next week I will learn about waiting. Waiting on the Lord. Hmmmmm...that may be a little harder to practice.

Wrapped in His Love, Grace, and Mercy
Jolie

Within a month

It has been a while.
I have done some exploring new states.
Traveling by plane, car, foot, four wheeler, fishing boat,inner tube.
Examining my current reality.
Feeling the emotions.
Seeking to find a living balance between the two.
Fighting the roaring lies.
Soaking in the gentle whispers of truth.
Building muscles from the heavy burden I carry.
Relaxing when the burden is taken away or set aside.
Sharing some tears.
Filling a room with laughter.
Sometimes I think maybe I really am loopy.