Quietness

I am in awe of God. I don't know how to fully explain Him. How He loves me no matter what I do?!? How He always takes me back when I have run the other direction?!? How He holds no grudges even though I have put Him last on the list?!?

So He opened my eyes this weekend. My utter dependence was on Him. He showed up. He also reminded me that He is always there. I just choose to ignore Him alot. Even today as I went about teaching estimation, I had to choose to welcome Him.

The mind is a very powerful battlefield and there is constant raging war in mine. Just ask my friends. When I am ready to surrender to the other side, I plead with Him one last time. No, He hasn't fixed what I want fixed. He hasn't given me what I want. But He quiets my soul in a way that nothing else will. It may come thru a friend, a situation, a kind word, or just a peace within.

Though things sort of suck these days and are not ideal according to Jolie reality, He has been my strength, my comforter, my hope, the catcher of all my tears.